Saturday, March 28, 2009

7 Weeks!

Well, little one, you are doing a great job of holding on!! The cramping has finally subsided, and I have realized the culprit of the pain.... let's just say 15 minutes in the washroom and the cramps were gone! Whoops! Mommy and Daddy are very anxious to meet you and the next 33 weeks are going to go by SOOOO slowly!

Nausea has officially started... not so much throwing up yet, but just the feeling of not feeling very well. I don't want nausea to start so I'm praying it subsides quickly, haha!

Bauer knows something is up but doesn't understand yet what it is... which is fine with us! He's going to have a lot to deal with you come... but he is going to LOVE you!

We are quickly trying to finish our basement before your arrival. We want some place with carpet for you to play on. Hardwood won't be very comfortable for you! Daddy's doing an amazing job finishing the basement! We just have a few more baseboards to finish, a closet in the spare room downstairs, blinds, a little more electrical (we'll pass the permit next time!), and then my favourite: FURNITURE!! It's looking more like a basement now and I can't wait for it to be finished.

33 more weeks!! I can't wait!!

Thursday, March 19, 2009


I have decided to ignore the fears the doctors put into my head and go ahead believing that God has a plan for this little one and it involves being born. I know God loves me and knows my dreams and desires, and He knows I want a baby more than anything. I am believing, little one, that you are perfect and healthy and that God has a plan for you!! I can't wait to meet you!!

Monday, March 16, 2009

Not a Good Day

Today has not been a good day, little one. Last night, before bed, I was not feeling very good. I went to the washroom, and noticed a little blood. I got very scared. Thankfully, I had a doctor's appointment today. My doctor is also concerned, and we are very fearful that you are either ectopic or that I am miscarrying you. If I do, I want you to know how much I love you even though I've never met you. I'm so sad that our days could be numbered... it doesn't seem fair. I am trying to be optimistic, but today it's been very difficult. I wanted to meet you so badly. Stay strong, little one. I am still praying that one day I will meet you.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Pregnancy Update

Well, little one... you are causing Mommy a lot of pain! I always thought that pregnancy involved hunched over a toilet bowl puking for months on end. I am either 8 or 10 weeks pregnant, and I have felt none of that. In fact, I have no symptoms... except one: cramps. I feel like I'm 11 years old again, curled up in my bed, home from school because I couldn't go in due to the pain. Today, the pain comes and goes, it's painful for about 3 minutes and then BAM it stops. I find Tums really have become my best friend.

Monday is my first doctor's appointment. I find out if everything is ok, and how my little baby is coming along.

Ryan is super excited as well. He comes up to me, gives me my hourly hug and kiss, and then says hello to little baby. He is constantly thinking of names, and I LOVE watching how excited he gets when talking about Baby.

We're pretty sure Bauer is not going to like Baby coming into the world... he will no longer be my #1. But I think he'll love Baby just as much as we do. I can't wait for the 2 of them to meet!!

Sunday, March 8, 2009

Dun dun dunnnn

Today is Sunday. On Thursday, Ryan and I found out we were pregnant. We are both over the moon with excitement!! We have no idea anything - when we're due, what it is, etc... but none of that matters. The fact that we created a human being together... and it is growing in my tummy... words cannot explain how I feel. I am already in love with this little person and it's the size of a pinhead.

I haven't been feeling good this week because of it. I have cramping so strong that it keeps me up every night. I think since Thursday I've slept a total of 6 hours altogether. However, I'm sure learning to enjoy my daytime naps! It's going to be a tough week not being able to nap while at work. I am somewhat worried about this cramping, and I am praying to God continuously throughout the day that nothing is wrong. My mother had 2 miscarriages before she had me, and it's like a little voice in the back of my head reminding me not to get too attached ... but this is proving to be more difficult than I thought!! I am already so in love.